Oh lawd.

Up is about to make me cry. No joke.

FUN WEEKEND.

miss my Ash Ca$h already, but Janna and i will send her video posts on Fbook. :)

Glad the old man on this movie is my idea of the perfect person. I love old people.

KEVIN!!! hahaha if I had a huge female bird, I would name it Kevin too.

You think I'm kidding.

DOGS CANNOT FLY PLANES.

November 30th is Monday.

Alex's birthday.

A year since.....ohh boy.

I won't lie and say I haven't been thinking about it.

But I haven't been thinking about it in a good way, which is a big relief. It's always good to know that I don't still have feelings for him. Though every time I see him my breath kind of shortens. Maybe it's cause he's so damn ugly and nasty in every way. What a bitch.

NANCY?!?

Oh.

Everytime I'm happy, you get mad at me.

I don't understand why you can't just be okay with the fact that, for once, things are looking up for me.

I just don't understand.

Screw dis, mannn!

Yeah, boyz iz dum.
First off, HEY CODY, I DON'T LIKE YOU. GET THE PICTURE?
Second, THANKS FOR CALLING ME, EVAN. OR TEXTING LIKE YOU PROMISED. AND THANKS FOR COMPLETELY IGNORING WHEN WE MADE EYE CONTACT IN THE HALLS LIKE THREE TIMES. I MEAN, AWESOME. THAT'S COOL.
Third, I'm really excited for Janz's birthday. And Ashley coming. Cause it's gonna be awesome. And Mr. McLuely said she could come to fourth blockkkkk. I am so excited.

So, in conclusion, FUCK YOU, BOYS. I'VE GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN MOURN OVER YOU. IF YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME, I'M NOT GONNA CARE ABOUT YOU.


Bitchezzz.

Also, I'm getting in shape. It's quite nice :)
I like the energy boost. Also the increase in the flow of endorphins to the brain! haha.
Peace out, grl.

I Love You, Man.

Oh, anyways, I like life right now.
BY THE WAY, sorry I haven't blogged. I know all you readers have missed me.
...NOT.
hahaha. But I don't care. Anywho, as to why I'm happy:
1. Jason Segel + Jimmy Fallon = My life complete. The end.
2. It is officially Saturday. However dumb this is, I am glad that Evan will be home today. He makes me smile. Like thisss :) :) :) :) :)
3. I JUST SAW JASON SEGEL JUMPING ROPE AS A SMALL CHILD WITH A HEADBAND SINGING "GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN". UHH, YEAH.
4. We're having fun like we used to. We've had camera sesh-es and been hanging out and talking more and actually having fun. It makes me so so so so happy to finally, after all this time, make a new album on facebook of pictures of us being complete and total idiots. Yayy :D
5. Nobody (that I know of) is mad at me. And I am mad at no one. This, more than anything, puts a hugeass smile on my face.
6. I just got a twitter update from Craigery Owens. I really actually enjoy twitter. Lots and lotss. Thank you, Janz!
7. I'm working again. I'm gonna be out of debt soon. How excited am I?
8. I'm rull excited for Janz's partayy, yo. IT'S GONNA BE BALLIN.
9. Oh yeah, I'm not in any way emotionally attached to Billy anymore. That's always a reason to smile.
AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST....
10. MY FAVORITE ASHLEY MCWONDERFUL IS COMING TO SEE ME AND I AM SO PUMPED.
Yeah, just saying :)

I want Evan to like me. I want him to so so bad. And I don't really talk about it THAT much, but he means so much to me. For anyone who gives a shit, I realized a couple days ago that my attentions are fickle. I am verrrryyy easily distractable. But with The E-Train, (he calls himself this, ahah), I want to make it work. I want to be with him for a long, long time. I wish he would realize how perfect we are for each other.

ALSO, IT WOULD BE SUPER AWKWARD IF HE OR HIS GIRLFRIEND READ THIS RIGHT NOW. HAHAHA.

But, I told him how I felt. I (thxJnz) was brave. I called him while he was about to board his plane to Puerto Rico. I actually let him know what I thought about him. How much I thought about him. And, I think I might be the better for it.

FINIS.

My hero?

Honestly, why can't I meet this man? I understand Janna. I understand how you can love someone so much that you've never actually spoken to. I've never even met him, and yet...I could swear to you that he is my soul mate. I would kill to see him, just a glimpse of him, in person. He makes me remember to breathe sometimes. His words are so real. I can understand everything that comes out of his mouth. Everything about him is poetic.
"My heart was broken, but it is usually that way."
It sucks to think that he is only four short hours away, and yet, I may go my whole life without seeing him.
But hey, that's just the way life goes sometimes.
Marry me, Ferraby?

SOMETIMES...

I abso-fucking-lutely love everything.
:)
why is it that he makes me so unbelievably happy?
Really.
He's so cute. And I can see us working out like FO'RLLZZZ.
Seriously, I'm so happy.
He said if he didn't have some way to talk to me he'd be some depressed emo kid.
hahaha.
GINGERPOWER. :))))))))

Stupidity.

Why can't I stop thinking about him?